sing me to sleep

Day 4 of bed rest and the pills I must take have me with awful dreams forcing me to wake with fret and fear... I can't really explain what I am so worried about but I know that once I realize I am no longer in a dreaming state of torment, the distance between what I have created as my home and my actual home feels greater than ever before.




I just want to sleep well and wake up when all of this is over with... when ever I would see my grandmother, after I would attack her with cuddles and kisses, I'd lay my head down in a "convenient" spot across her lap. This is univeral code in our family for "Play with my hair". There are also other poses that imply "scratch my back", "massage me please", and my personal favorite "lightly drag your fingertips across my arms"! The times that I most realize the distance are times like right now. When a stroke to my hair would put me at ease and hopefully to sleep!!!

I really do not like these drugs. I had to ask the doctor to stop prescribing me so many. And I actually went most of the day w/o taking them until I got checked by a thing known as "Ouch" but more like "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUuuuuuuuuuCHHHH!"
followed by a couple "Why!?"s and "OH MY GAWWWWDDDDD NOOOOOOOOOO"! Throw some tears and you get the gist!

Hope sleep is with you. I am here envying you!

x's and oh's

kims

no rhyme or reason...

i just like these...



She's cool... I wish my life was filmed this way

the kills :: black balloon


They are cool... I USED to wish my life looked this way (a la 1990's...The LATE 1990's)

edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros :: Home


This is cool... I wish boys liked me this way

the depreciation guild :: dream about me


STARS has a new album coming out too! It will be released on June 22, 2010!



I wish Morrissey liked me as a friend...

stars the smiths charming man cover::


Here is Stars Upcoming Tour Dates ::
06/01 – Boston, MA @ Paradise Rock Club
06/03 – Philadelphia, PA @ First Unitarian Church
06/04 – Brooklyn, NY @ Music Hall of Williamsburg
06/05 – New York, NY @ Le Poisson Rouge
06/06 – Houston, TX @ Free Press Summerfest
06/08 – Cleveland, OH @ Beachland Ballroom
06/09 – Chicago, IL @ Lincoln Hall
06/15 – Seattle, WA @ The Triple Door
06/16 – Seattle, WA @ The Triple Door
06/17 – Portland, OR @ Aladdin Theater
06/19 – San Francisco, CA @ The Independent
06/20 – San Francisco, CA @ The Independent
06/22 – Los Angeles, CA @ The Troubadour
06/23 – Los Angles, CA @ The Troubadour

you shine in the public eye, my dear

I have had the song Girlfriend in a Coma stuck in my head for the past 12 years...

*its really seriousssssssssss



I feel like if Morrissey and I were on speaking terms, he'd be all rude to me and I would just take it with a big grin, then go complain to my other friends when given the opportunity to vent. Regardless, I have seen him in and around LA since I arrived in this city more than 5 years ago, and I enjoyed his lack of enthusiasm directed towards me, if not for anything else but the sheer novelty and bragging rights, I can claim, "Morrissey bird-dogged me!"



He's kind of the best! It just makes his smile much more genuine!







stop me if you think you've heard this one before ::


ask ::


girlfriend in a coma ::